last dance with mary jane

breakthetruth @ 2007-10-26T14:48:00

2007-10-26T18:50:30Z

how is it that one can love AND hate a person at the same time?

and how do you decide which feeling is stronger?

i think its bad when my life problems remind me of dawson's creek.

wow ... livejournal

2007-01-13T17:49:24Z

I haven't written in this in like a year. I just read my last one and it was from before nationals .... which I won first place thank youuuuu! That week was just amazing to me ... I met new people from all over the country, and it was an experience that I will never forget. Especially hearing my name called for first place and my jaw just dropped, I totally didn't expect it.

So ... I'm in school now, studying Advertising Photo at RIT. It's pretty sweet. A lot of hard work but I'm doing my best. So far my GPA is 3.062 ... hoping to raise it this quarter with a lot of hard work. Oh and I moved out of my parents house, into an apartment which is the lower level of a house with two sweet kids. It's in the city, about 15mins from school which is nice. 10 mins from work too. I've met some great people at RIT ... which helps with the fact that I feel like I'm losing touch with all of my other friends. Especially my roomates.

It's just really frustrating when your best friend puts you in the exact situation that she gets pissed about when your mutual roomate puts her in. Sound confusing? Well it is ... but she gets pissed whenever our room mate has a certain guy over. I get pissed whenever she has Katelyn over because I don't want to be in her presence, hear her voice, see her face, or even think about her at all. After all of the things she's said to me, it really surprises me that Jess is friends with her and brings her to OUR place all the time. And put on top of that the fact that I've spoken to Jess about it, and I wrote her a note about it and she still does not listen. Katelyn and Ernie just show up at our house like they live there or something. I'm sick of it. And if it doesn't stop, I'm not going to live with Jess after our lease is up because I shouldn't have to put up with this and I'm not going to. It's just really disrespectful, as I would never have someone over who disrespected my best friend or someone who my best friend really did not like in any way - we both live there and it's time she acted like it.

So ... Dec. 30th one of my friends passed away in a car accident. Jay Grizz ... he was an insane driver, but a good driver. At times I still feel like he's not really gone, and I kind of just want to give him a hug. He gave some sweet hugs since he was like a giant. 21 years old is too damn young to die. The whole thing felt surreal to me. At the wake (it was open casket) it looked like he was sleeping, and he was about to sit up ... at the funeral the little program things they hand out with his picture seemed fake. The funeral kind of bothered me ... the only thing that reminded me of Jay was the eulogy ... the rest was religious babble to me. I don't remember any religious side of Jay, and it seemed wierd that the only part of his funeral where someone who knew him was talking about him as a person and not about him in relation to God was during the eulogy. I find it eerie that his motto was to live as if everyday is your last .... because he did just that. I miss him :( RIP Jaysonnn <3

So I quit my job at Concentrix ... I'm never going to get a raise here and it is the most boring job I've ever had. Today I'm work 8 1/2 hours, I've been here for 2 hours and only have gotten 2 phone calls. At 3 I'll be the only person here, with no music, no one to talk to, nothing. It's so boring and I think I'm getting carpal tunnel. And I hate fucking cubicles. Yuckkkk they make me feel crazy. So I gave my two weeks notice and on Monday I start training at a restaurant called Wild Noodles ... they make mad good food and my friend Ben from Don's and Guida's got me a job there. I didn't even have to fill out an app before the Boss asked me what hours I want and stuff. It will be sweet to work with Ben and Aaron again, not necessarily Pope, but it will be fun to work in a restaurant again instead of a boring office.

Well I think I've written more than enough ... maybe I'll keep this up now. Who knows

breakthetruth @ 2006-06-19T02:56:00

2006-06-19T06:57:38Z

school is over!

graduation in a week!

but first ... national photo competition in kansas city! woohoo wish me luck

i'll be back saturday morning

there's a very scarey bug in my room. i thought it died but i think it just flew out of the trash can. help?

breakthetruth @ 2006-02-18T21:43:00

2006-02-19T02:44:24Z

Well I never update this thing but I figured now I have some news to share :)

Yesterday I got my acceptance letter from RIT and today I got one from UB! I'm almost positive I'm going to RIT (Advertising Photography) and I'm pretty pumped haha

yay :)

breakthetruth @ 2005-11-28T17:00:00

2005-11-28T22:02:32Z

Well it's almost December ... which means I need to do my college apps asap ... but ya know I'm an insane procrastinator. This Thanksgiving break was awesome. Lots of hang out sessions, including a road trip to Buffalo with my two favs which was not too eventful but fun nonetheless. Got my report card, I have like a 92 which I'm super pumped about considering I wasn't working too hard this semester.

I really have nada to say so peace out bitches

totally unexpected but certainly well recieved

2005-11-03T20:36:05Z

FROM: Pratt Institute
SUBJECT: Your Portfolio Evaluation

"Dear Christina:

Congratulations! You received an evaluation of “very good” on your portfolio. Your rating reflects a level of skill and talent that fulfills our portfolio requirement. We are so pleased that you are considering Pratt and sincerely hope that you are planning to apply ...

... Since you have met the portfolio requirement, you do not have to submit slides or additional work."

SO apparantly I don't need drawings? I'm not sure but if so I'm pumped!

breakthetruth @ 2005-11-01T18:37:00

2005-11-01T23:38:52Z

I don't bring my camera with me often enough.

last weekendish at mike's house:

80% of your body heat is lost through your head
haha

breakthetruth @ 2005-09-25T21:57:00

2005-09-26T01:58:40Z

I want my hair long & dark again. And I do realize my hair isn't much shorter now than in that picture, but it's still shorter. I'm totally dying it soon. lyke totally man.

No pictures from this weekend. I wish I had my camera Saturday night. Me and Jess are crazy. :)

yessir

2005-09-21T00:20:32Z

Today was sweet, planning out our extravagent senior hoodies. jkcapmt=love. I'm pumped. DINOSAURS ARE COOL.

Pictures when we get them. Get excited.

For now:

Art:

mr. rogers

katelyn, chloe, some wierd girl and michelle

bailey

Homecoming:

Our sweet, very large float ...

the sky said 'loco' but we knew you wouldn't be able to tell

miss christina in her queen stuff :)

Me fucking around last night & today:

who wants to offer up a back massage?

2005-09-08T01:35:57Z

ATTENTION: After almost 2 months of not writing in here I'm backkkkkk. :) No words, just pictures. Nothing's going to be friends only unless it's "bad" ;x

Get excited kids.

MOVING ON: back to school pictures.

breakthetruth @ 2005-07-19T16:38:00

2005-07-19T20:39:10Z

One last ending note compliments of this old dead guy Kahlil Gibran.

"Your children are not your children.

They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.

They come through you but not from you, And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts. For they have their own thoughts.

You may house their bodies but not their souls, For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.

You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you. For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday."

This goes out to controlling parents everywhere. Remember that.

breakthetruth @ 2005-07-17T21:54:00

2005-07-18T01:55:15Z

So I'm done with livejournal for a while. As much as I really like writing down what happens day to day, I'm fucking sick of people reading friends only entries that aren't even on my friends list. So enough of that, I'm done.

breakthetruth @ 2005-07-01T22:41:00

2005-07-02T02:44:09Z

Friday = payday ... $$$$$. I got a 50 cent raise, I made $244.58 this week!!! FUCKING HOLLER. I actually have some spending money this week after paying my mom the weekly $100 on my car. Only $300 left to go!!!

I need Jessica Rachel to dye my hair crazy bad. And my bangs need some serious cuttage. Um I don't have much else. Shopping?? yessss.

Monday will be my first day off in 2 whole weeks. I only know I have off because we're not even open (fourth of July bitchesss).

breakthetruth @ 2005-06-28T12:16:00

2005-06-28T19:17:54Z

Well I haven't updated in about a week and I have many stories to tell. But I don't have time right now ... so after Ashley's party tonight I have a date with my computer to write down my life story of the last week. :)

Learning things feels good. I can officially say I have no problems driving stick, and I'm learning subs at work pretty fast. I like it.

breakthetruth @ 2005-06-20T18:59:00

2005-06-20T23:11:29Z

I officially mastered starting my car when I'm stopped at a light going up a hill ----- I'm fucking awesome. :)

niiiiice pizza

breakthetruth @ 2005-06-13T22:31:00

2005-06-14T02:34:23Z

Well today I came home around 12 and finished my English essay. Dropped that off at school and got pictures taken of my car for the insurance thingie. Went tanning, got gas, came home and fell asleep until 8 hahaha. I wanted to go swimming at Jess' house but it was raining/thundering/lightning anywho so oh well. I ate the best chocolate cake of my life for my Uncle's birthday. yummm

Tomorrow I'm going to see Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants with Jess and Katelyn while everyone else is in school ... and I'm friggen pumped.

Two more days of Junior year ... this shit is bananas.

breakthetruth @ 2005-06-12T21:57:00

2005-06-13T01:58:34Z

Today was lame. I bought air freshener things for my car and didn't have time to go to the bank or get a new tanning thing. I need so much money for things rarrr ---> nails filled, hair dye, haircut, tanning, clothes, etc. I haven't spent money on myself in a while and it is SOOO necessary haha.

I want one of these for my backyard:

So we can have campfires in my yard during the summer. That'd be sweet.

breakthetruth @ 2005-06-12T14:03:00

2005-06-12T18:06:27Z

I have been crazy ass busy.

There's only 3 more days of school left and I'm pumped.

I'm getting better and better at driving my car, and I love it.

Gunnar says I'm going to start learning subs soon - should be fun?

Talk of a raise ... which I need.

I'm going to miss my photo class.

Wednesday night = awards show at Nazareth.

I promised myself about a month ago I wouldn't buy clothes until the end of the school year.

That means it's almost time to go shopping. :D

breakthetruth @ 2005-06-07T23:40:00

2005-06-08T03:43:15Z

So Darien Lake was pretty sweet, even though I definetly feel like I'm growing out of amusement parks, no one can complain about taking the day off of school/work and getting to lay by the wave pool. It was nice.

So my car came!!! It's fucking sexy. I drove it a bit last night, did great says my dad. Today I went with him to get it registered, so now it has plates and a real sticker and all that. yayyy. Then I tried driving it around some more and my dad made me go on 250 and it was really scarey ... I stalled twice today. So I didn't drive it to work ... I want to drive to school tomorrow though ... it doesn't get too fast on the way to school and there's no hills, so I'll be fine I hope :)

I'm hating this end of the year with so much passion. Now I'm off to finish a book for English ...

breakthetruth @ 2005-05-24T16:12:00

2005-05-24T20:15:17Z

So best news ever:

This car ...

is MINE!!!!

A 1999 Saturn Sc1 - that means it has 3

:)

My daddy's going to pick it up in Providence in a week and half. Then I get to learn how to drive a standard ;P

breakthetruth @ 2005-05-21T21:28:00

2005-05-22T01:32:15Z

So this morning we lost that car aution which really blows ass. And I thought I lost my CD player (but my brother put it somewhere different than I had it) and there was no gas in the car so my day kind of started off bad. But then I went to work and it really wasn't bad. It was slightly busy so I always had something to do, which is actually nice sometimes.

My entries are so boring, I have nothing to say so byeeee.

breakthetruth @ 2005-05-20T06:58:00

2005-05-20T10:58:43Z

The sweet car I want on ebay is still only at $1,025 and it's got 1 day and 3 hours. Pray for me fuckers!!

EDIT: 20 hours left and still only $1025. I want this so baddddd.!

breakthetruth @ 2005-05-19T14:41:00

2005-05-19T18:47:49Z

So let's see. I rescheduled my senior pics because I was sick and looked shittayyy. So those are now Monday at 4. Last night work was ehhhh, not bad. No Mike=good times had by all. Except Seedler burned something and the whole place filled with smoke and smelled funky, but we opened the doors and all was good with the world again.

Yesterday a girl in my English class had a seizure and fell out of her chair. It was fricken scarey. I realized no one teaches us what to do in a situation like that because everyone was saying either to not touch her or to put a pillow under her head. I hope nothing bad ever happens to me and they're the only ones around ... anyway today we all got doughnuts in that class because we handled it so awesomely. I thought it was kind of wierd - a girl has a siezure and we get doughnuts. But it was a nice gesture.

Today I checked with some teachers to see what work I need to make up cuz I'm slacking hardcore. My Spanish grade went from a B- at five weeks to a C- ... in like 3 days. Wtfffff. So that's what I'll be doing tonight. Stupid nail salons are busy and I wanted to get mine filled.

breakthetruth @ 2005-05-17T14:19:00

2005-05-17T18:20:46Z

So I've been feeling kinda shitty, but I think it's just allergies. I woke up this morning and just couldn't get up .... so I slept until 1:30. Now I have laundry to do so I have clothes to wear for my senior pics tonight, cuz that's kind of necessary.

lalala

breakthetruth @ 2005-05-15T23:12:00

2005-05-16T03:15:55Z

At work tonight I got shit the whole time for hanging out with Ryan last night. Mike wasn't there so no one was doing their job, so I was really pissed. The new girl quit after two days because her boyfriend is insane. Mike scheduled me Tuesday night even though I told him I needed it off and (I looked in his schedule cuz I'm badass) he had it written down. But since Ashley quit I'm working Monday and someone else has to take Tuesday. Holla.

I'm getting my senior pictures taken Tuesday and I have to like ... pick out outfits for it. I'm excited.